Monday, January 31, 2005

On Recollections and Jobs

It's been a while.

Last sunday, Canto Cinco (our choir) had a recollection at the CLC in Ateneo after our mass at UP. I just have to say that people are beginning to notice how different the 11am mass at the UP Parish is because there were so many people. As in the whole church was quite full (which was not usually the case when we sing there). And the church did something about the sound system... as in we suddenly sounded REALLY GOOD. Hehe. Sabi ni nga ni Jomar, yung vocal trainor namin from PHSA, "PRACTICE MAKES PERMANENT."

Anyway, during the recollection, we were asked to reflect on our broken spirit and to pray for renewal... for a new heart. And during the meditation, I realized that I have been far too careless with my friendships, the people I trust and the people I love. So when Fr. Jboy asked us what kind of heart we wanted, I told the group I wanted a heart that is open. One with no barriers, rather than the one-way mirror that I have for a heart. One that is transparent and true.

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Enough about hearts. Baka kasi ayaw niyo nang magbasa ulit, sabihin niyo ang baduy kong tao.

Let's talk about jobs and job hunting. Today I experienced my first official job interview... well, first official INITIAL interview. All I can say is that it was quite a nerve-racking experience... especially when the interviewer is SO cute. :) Hay... But I do think I won't get a call back. The job requires me to be willing to work in Sta. Rosa and I just can't because I have my Lola and the Canto Cinco to tend to.

Tomorrow, I have an exam with Petron; another company that would probably require me to work outside Manila. Hay... Oh well. Sayang naman kung di ko puntahan. I just wish I would get a call from either Canon, or URC; if that happens then I would probably be really happy... unless Procter and Gamble calls. Now when THAT happens, and I get accepted... Manlilibre ako. :)

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Song of the Moment: Rivermaya - You'll Be Safe Here

Nobody knows
Just why we’re here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Oh Yes... It's My Birthday

It is funny that I find myself right here in front of my desktop PC trying to write something about the year that passed. I think I have never done this before; looking back at what happened and thinking about what is in store for me.

But I guess right now, I am doing this because I feel like I am on a crossroad and I don't know where to go. Frankly, I just want to have one last look before I head out into whatever God has in store for me.

My 21st year was a blast, academic-wise. It was my last year in college, and thankfully I graduated despite being totally unsure of what I'd really like to do or if I really want to pursue Chemical Engineering after school. Even with the imminent plan of going to the US and the ever-increasing desire to go to medical school, I took the licensure exams (as a security blanket if things don't work out in the US) and now I am a Registered Chemical Engineer. That was just the icing on the cake, and I am really happy that I made my parents and everybody around me so proud.

This past year was also a good year for me and music. Music is my passion and God has blessed me with the opportunity to serve Him through singing. Not only that but He has also blessed me with new friends; these wonderful people at Canto Cinco that I can always look up to for strength and inspiration. And on top of all that, I will finally be able to fulfill my dream: to record an album. This is definitely that one ride of my life that I will never forget.

It is amazing how God has given me a lot this year when I, on the other hand, had been giving so little to the ones I love. I can say that my 21st year was not a good year for relationships; I had been very unfaithful and careless with Kika and I am definitely not proud of the things I did and the pain I've caused her and all the other people involved. But then, I am enjoying all these new experiences and friendships that I've gained and I thank God for all these, especially now that things are working out well with me and Kix...

Still, I am happy of how my life is going right now. I may not know what I really want to do, what road to take, or what dream to pursue, but if all these blessings are indications of how God is closely paying attention then I am definitely looking forward to everything my 22nd year has to offer.

Engr. Woofy

Monday, January 17, 2005

On Slumber Days and Health Consciousness

Today was one of those slumber days... just me, my blanket and my really stiff bed.

Not that everyday is not a slumber day for me. Being a bum comes with all the luxuries that most unemployed graduates get: the bed, the pillow, the blanket, the TV, the couch and the glorious food. You wake up with the lunch already served, you turn on the TV, you watch snakes eat mice on Discovery while you munch on whatever edible stuff is in the ref, and before you know it, balita na sa Channel 2.

This morning would have been one of those regular bum days except that it was really cold. For some reason, God has turned up the air-conditioning to Economy Cool and forgot to turn it off. I woke up with a runny nose, and come to think of it, my nose hurts from all that sneezing and trying to hold back the sneezing. I so wished my nose literally ran today. And if it did, I hope it comes back tomorrow, alive and kicking, ready and healthy for the rehearsals...

Which I am so desperately excited for. Anything that can make me get out of the house that does not involve me sweating and running...

Which I find really weird. I mean, I know I lost weight ever since after the licensure exams. And I know I have to do something to maintain and perhaps tone this flabby internet-surfer dude body of mine. But I feel really awkward when people see me exercising. Until now, I haven't figured out why I am so conscious about being health conscious...

Gah! Oh well, maybe I am just so damn lazy. Still, I would do something about this health consciousness problem of mine. I swear on the grave (that is a pile of leaves) of Bobong the Salagubang I adopted one fateful day.

woofy

I'm back...

This will be how my bahay-aso would temporarily look like.
I'm now really planning to vacate my beloved home but still...
We'll see.

Anyway, I'm back. And for lack of anything to write about, click this

Bye!

woofster