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Sunday, November 27, 2005

Frustration.

It’s intangible and yet it persists like an irritating pimple which seemingly, like a demented, sadistic man, decides to torment you by growing at the middle of your back where you can’t reach it.

It taunts and it leaves you drained; it feeds on all your negative thoughts, bitter feelings and rancid emotions, and then it engulfs you and possesses you so it can transfer itself like a deadly virus to all those in close proximity of your being.

Frustration will make you doubt yourself. It will make you reevaluate the choices you made that brought you to your current state, and it brings upon you its most potent weapon: regret. And when regret takes hold of you, then either you shake it off, or you dwell on it, clothing yourself in its coldness, isolating yourself until you realize you’ve fallen into depression... There is a reason why being alone is lonely.

However, there are ways to combat frustration. Like all enemies, it has its own weaknesses. And your secret strength, something that you always knew but rarely occurred to you, is that you have a choice: either to give in to it or give it up and move on. And the latter is precisely what you should do: move on, shake things up… live life. Never give in to frustration and convert the negative to positive energy, positive feelings such as…

…Love.

Love is such a powerful defense. Surrounding yourself with your loved ones is like hiding from a torrent of flaming arrows under a roof made out of shields held upright by warriors you trust.

Knowing that somebody is there for you is quite comforting

Knowing that you’re not alone can make you feel like you can conquer the world.

Loving and knowing that you’re loved can make a big difference.

And hopefully, when you let go of your regrets and when the ranting stops, you realize that love is everything you wanted, everything you needed, and more.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Malapit na...

...matapos ang kontrata ko sa Ginebra. Bum na naman, pero pwede ring estudyante ulit. Tingnan natin. Nakapagod maging empleyado.

...matapos ang review class ko sa NMAT. Shit.

...ang NMAT. Seryoso na ito. Shit.

...ang birthday ni Tricia. May gift ka na hunnie, sana magustuhan mo. :)

...ang Christmas. Sana may mapulot akong pera by that time.

woofy

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Tired

Materials Testing Room
QA Dept, GSMI Lucena

Another day... at least when I got here this morning, I had a bundle of Gran Matador Brandy 700 mL cartons waiting to be processed. Not unlike yesterday when God probably sensed I had too much work last Tuesday so he held all deliveries... Oh well. Back to boring routine work.

^___^

I'm currently listening to Pilgrim's Theme from the Vesper's 3: My Heart's Thanksgiving CD. Read the lyrics and see why I (and Angel too, if you're reading this, di kita inaagawan ng kanta) love this song so much...

Pilgrim's Theme
Lyrics: Johnny Go, S.J.

Tired of weaving dreams too loose for me to wear. Tired of watching clouds repeat their dance on air. Tired of getting tied to doing what's required. Is life a mere routine in the greater scheme of things?

Through with taking roads someone else designed. Through with chasing stars
that soon forget to shine. Through with going through one more day. What's new? Does my life still mean a thing in the greater scheme of things?

I think I'll follow the voice that calls within. Dance to the silent song it sings. I hope to find my place, so my life will fall in place. I know in time I'll find my place in the greater scheme of things.

Each must go his way, but how can I decide which path I should take? Who would be my guide? I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far. To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things.

The road before me bends. I don't know what I'll find. Will I meet a friend, or ghosts I've left behind? Will I even be surprised that You're with me in disguise? For it's Your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things.

So here I follow the voice that calls within. Dance to the silent song it sings. I hope to find my place, so my life will fall in place, for Yours is the voice in my deepest dreams. You are the heart, the very heart in the greater scheme of things.

Why don't we follow the voice that calls within? Dance to the silent song it sings. One day we'll find our place, for all things fall in place. For all things have a place in the greater scheme of things.

Sometimes you'll really feel weary especially when every new day seems to be like the day before... when the routineness of work gets to your nerves and you seem to have a hard time finding meaning in what you're doing...

And things can get more confusing when even you don't know yourself what path you want to follow, when there are far too many stars in heaven that you want to reach, when the dreams that you weave, whose designs intertwine into something unapparent, are seemingly too grand for you...

^___^?

Last Sunday, somebody said to me in a sort of exasperated way that I'm always tired. I know that she meant that as a joke but...

I guess there's a hint of truth in that statement. I am tired. I don't know why I'm having a hard time waking up in the morning, going through the day, and even sleeping. I'm getting fat and I'm too tired to do something about it that I'm looking for too many reasons not to exercise. I'm getting lonely and I rant about not having friends in Lucena but I don't go out of my way to meet new friends or keep in touch with old ones. I'm losing my will to chase this dream of becoming a doctor but then, here I am again with a grander dream of marrying the girl of my songs and owning a publishing/printing house to boot. I rant while trudging down this beaten path... I rant... rant... rant... rant...

I'm always tired. Or maybe I'm just plain lazy...

Hm...

^___^

I think this is enough.

If only it would be that easy to leave my old self behind like that guy running down an unpaved path in the Nike (or was that Adidas?) commercial... Oh well.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Bored

Materials Testing Room
QA Dept, GSMI Lucena

Right now, I find myself bored... nothing to do around here except to think. I can probably sleep if there's nobody around but I'm scared I might fall into a deep slumber and wake up to find my co-workers watching me drool. That won't be a pretty sight.

It's a good thing I texted Tricia. She said I should write... and yeah, I SHOULD write. It's been a long time since I 've updated my blog, and I should be putting into good use the vocabulary words I've been jotting down from various texts (e.g. Reader's Digest, Fudge Magazine, Abarat...) I've been reading. Anyway, thanks for reminding me Hunnie... I miss you.

^___^

It's really been a boring day and I'm so bored I don't know what to write. It's already 12:51 by the time I started this sentence and you've already spent so much energy just to read something that took me until 12:52 to finish.

And if you're still reading this, then thanks. You are probably one of my true friends.

^___^

It seems you still have the energy to read this sentence so I should take this opportunity to invite you to visit my choir's blog:

http://cantocinco.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog

or you could click THIS.

We'll be waiting to hear from you. :)

Friday, July 15, 2005

49 minutes; Huwag Mag-type; Miss ko na ang C5; Bum Society; Farewell; Sprite Ice; Friday na!

4:11 pm
Materials Testing Room
Quality Assurance Dept
GSMI Lucena Plant

Meron pa akong 49 minutes para tumanga, umidlip, makinig sa Vespers 2, magbasa at magsulat. Ba’t naman kasi ganito ang sked ko? 4 pm, wala nang Logistics so wala na dapat deliveries at wala na akong trabaho. But no… Oh well.

^___^

Wala na naman akong maisulat. Sabi ni Neil Gaiman, para sa mga nagsisimula pa lang na manunulat, mainam na magbasa ng magbasa ng mga bagay na hindi mo kadalasang binabasa, tapos ayun, maghanap ng ideya sa paligid… at magsulat ng magsulat.

Huwag mag-type. Magsulat. Kung pwede bolpen at lapis, mas maganda…

Kaya eto, nagsusulat ako sa likod ng lumang labels ng Gordon’s London Dry Gin at alam niyo? Wala pa rin akong maisip na topic na maisulat… Ay. Meron na pala.

^___^

Nakikinig ako ngayon sa Vespers 2… Kung hindi ako nagsusulat ngayon, siguro nakatulog na ako sa saliw ng ihip at kwerdas.

Nami-miss ko na naman ang Hunnie ko, kasalukuyan kasing pinapatugtog ang If I Could Touch You ni Fr. Manoling. ‘Yan ‘yung unang natutunang kanta ni Hunnie at napag-solo na agad siya. Ganda!

Hay… I miss you Tricia… I miss Canto Cinco!

Kagabi kumakanta ako ng The Majesty And Glory Of Your Name para sa mga misa sa linggo. Naaalala ko nung huli akong nag-lunch kasama ang C5, nasa Wok Dis Way kami sa Katips tapos after kumain, kumanta sila (ang C5) ng The Majesty… Hindi ako makasabay at medyo na-sad ako kasi ang ganda-gandang pakinggan at panoorin ng more than 10 people, singing in harmony na lumalabas ng restaurant papunta sa parking lot…

Nakakainggit na nakakabighani na nakakapangulila sa mga panahong isa akong dakilang bum na walang ibang ginawa kundi kumanta…

^___^

Speaking of bums… Wala na. Tapos na ang Bum Society ng C5.

Unang nawala si Persia… isa na ngayong dakilang UMIIBIG na titser sa Mapua.

Tapos ako… Quality Assurer, taga-sukat ng bote, label, carton, caps, crowns, SOB at kung anu-ano pa dito sa GSMI.

Tapos si Tricia… ang aking hibang na hunnie na nababaliw na sa pagtuturo sa mga moth-fearing Povedans.

Tapos eto na… Si Abbey. Lilipad nang patungong US, magpapakadalubhasa sa pag-aaral at pagsusulat ng mga aklat pambata.

Hay… Mami-miss ko ang Abbey na ‘yun. Isa pa ‘yung hibang at adik umibig. As in… Stalker yan! Stalker! Hahahahaha! Biro lang Abbey.

Mami-miss kita talaga… Sobra. Susulat ka sa amin ha? Sulat kamay, wag i-type, para masaya di ba?

^___^

Farewell my dear… I hope someday you’ll find a place where your beauty, which had been long obscured from view, but still emanates with penetrating radiance, will be revealed for all to see and admire…A place where your voice will be heard without having to pass through a wall of silence and ambiguity. May you grow in God’s love and compassion, and may you never forget the power of your voice, our songs and our music.

Always remember that you have a place to come back to, a home, a family that you helped nurture into something quite remarkable, something that God has seemingly planned to use to spread his message of love.

We will miss you… rise from the abyss… soak in the rain…fly with the wind… sing!

^___^

Maiba ako.

Kahit na ka-affiliate namin ang Coca-Cola Bottlers Phil. Inc, I strongly advise you NOT to drink the newly released Sprite Ice if:

(a) It is not ice-cold
(b) You don’t want to feel like you’ve brushed your teeth… tapos hindi ka nagmumog.

^___^

Friday na! At 4:41pm pa lang! Shiyet! 19 minutes pa bago mag-5pm! Sige… magbabasa muna ako.

I’ll see you soon Hunnie… Yipee!

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Minsan Last Week

0729 AM
Materials Testing Room
GSMI Lucena Plant

Hay… Looks like another boring day with boring routine work. Nakakabobo magsukat. Wish ko lang magka-problem or something para busy ang araw na ito… para makapag-isip. Kasi kapag nagkaka-problem, iisipan mo ng cause pati recommendation, at least nayu-utilize ng KONTI ang pagiging engineer…
Eh kahapon nga ng hapon, walang deliveries so ayun, naggugupit lang ako ng tags para sa training manuals namin. SHIT. Pathetic.

^___^

Break.

Kwentuhan kami ni Ma’am Ansel about movies, Dan Brown and the Catholic Church. Masaya kakuwentuhan itong si Ma’am Ansel. Dami kwento.

May 2 kids siya, si Adeline at Anceline na sobrang cute and pretty kids at masusundan pa ng isa this August. Pinagpupustahan na nga sa QA kung ano ang kasarian ng bata.

Tapos I found out that Nica teaches her kids in pre-school! Small world! Hi Nica!

^___^

Kakaiba talaga gumalaw dito sa GSMI. Papano, pamilyado na ang lahat, maging babae, lalaki o bading. Kung hindi production ang pinag-uusapan kapag lunchbreak, ang topic ay kids o kaya pagbubuntis.

Kung anu-ano tuloy ang pumapasok sa utak ko… di ba Hunnie?

^___^

Hm… Stop muna. Mag-encode lang ako. Babay!

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Fine Time

I hope we could spend more time together
A few hours is better than never
If we could only make it longer
The whole day would be fine


Ganito na lang ba lagi? Isang araw sa isang linggo… sa dalawang linggo…Hay. Kasama kita buong araw noong linggo at sobrang saya ko. Nakakapawi ng pagod. Dama naman di ba? Dama ko rin naman ang saya mo… Nakakataba ng puso ang pakiramdam na minamahal ka ng isang taong nag-uumapaw sa kabaitan at pagmamahal.

I think its time to clean your car
I’m not home if someone calls
We could go out for a date
We could sing some songs we hate


Why not swim in someone’s pool
Jump a crane 12 stories high
Have a picnic in my room
Sit outside and watch the moon


Nagawa na ba natin 'yun? 'Yung tumambay sa labas at panoorin ang buwan? Hindi pa yata... huli tayong nakaupo sa dilim sa ilalim ng buwan eh nung retreat sa Tagaytay... Ang ganda ng gabing 'yun, medyo marami mang istorbo, kakaiba pa rin ang pakiramdam kapag mahal mo ang kausap mo... kayakap mo...

Naisip ko lang hindi na natuloy yung mga swimming na binalak natin kasama sina Abbey at Persia pero sobrang astig naman yung sa Laguna, yung lumangoy tayo sa ilog, umakyat at naglakad sa putik, sa ilalim ng matinding sikat ng araw at sa huli, ang buhusan ng tubig mula sa rumaragasang talon. Ang sarap mong kasama... ang saya mong kausap... ang galing mong mag-alaga ng mga batang myblue... ang ta-- este, ang sarap mong kasamang kumain. =P

We could drive into the malls
Or stay home and watch TV
I don’t care if we don’t have lunch
Just as long as we have iced tea

I could take you to a film
Hunt for books and magazines
Is that new song out on sale
I think your dress is kinda pale

Nakakaaliw kang kasama sa mall. Tahimik lang most of the time, pinapanood ako o kaya ang mga tao. Tahimik na naglalakad, may bakas ng ngiti sa mga labi. Hindi ka masyadong mahilig magpapasok ng mga shops, o kaya magtingin ng mga damit at magsukat ng sapatos. Kaya minsan naiisip ko kung ok na sa'yo yung magkasama tayo o or bored ka lang sa akin o nahihiya kang magsukat na kasama ako. Kaya pagpasensiyahan mo na ang kadaldalan ko, at pagiging praning ko kasi ang tahimik mo eh. Hehe.

Natuwa ako noon sinabi mong naaaliw ka sa akin nung nag-light up ang mga mata ko after nating pumasok sa isang comic store. Naaaliw naman ako sayo sa tuwing may makikita kang astigin na gift wrapper o kaya makapasok ka sa mga bookstores na maraming children's books o kaya sa isang crafts shop na maraming abubot na pang-regalo. Nanggigil ako sayo at gusto kitang yakapin at kurutin kapag nakakakita ka ng cute na bata or cute na aso dahil ang cute din ng boses mo, biglang tumataas at nagtutunog gigil. Pero alam mo, malakas kang mang-okray ng mga taong nakikita natin sa mall pero hindi masyadong halata...

There are times when disagree
My heart sinks to the sea
I’m always anxious when we kiss and make-up
Please don’t tire of understanding me

Hay... Eto yung ayaw ko. Kapag naiinis ako pag pasaway ka, or naiinis ka kasi pasaway ako. Pero alam mo? Hindi kita matiis, sobra. Kahit na madalas masungit ako at puno ng poot, alam mo namang kahit sitsitan mo lang ako eh tatakbo ako agad papunta sa tabi mo. Ikaw pa eh ang lakas mo sa akin.

Salamat sa pagintindi...

Being with you makes me feel so safe
I don’t care if we go out of town
I don’t care if we sleep all day
Basta’t kayakap ka ay okey

Sana matuloy yung balak nating pumunta ng Intramuros, Manila Zoo, National Museum, Tagaytay at pati na rin yung place na gusto kong puntahan sa San Pablo. Basta, kahit saan, kahit sa Baywalk lang ulit, kasama si Neng, tapos makikinig tayo kay Toto. Ok na yun, basta kasama ka. Iba kasi pag kasama ka, nakakawala ng pagod, nakakaalis ng problema, masaya, masaya, masaya, ngiti mo pa lang ulam na. Ang cute ng dimples mo!!!

A whole week would be fine
A whole month would be fine
A whole year would be fine
A decade would be fine
A century would be fine
Fine fine time
Forever would be fine


Habang buhay? Pwede na yun... sobra.

Happy 2 months Hunnie. :)

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Downtime; Ang Dungis Nun!; Ka-Greenwich; Ka-takawan At Ka-babuyan

10:44am
Materials Testing Rm
QA Dept
GSMI Lucena Plant

Downtime… Eto pala ang nakakaburat sa work. Wala kang magawa. Wala naming net dito sa office, dati meron pero cost-cutting kaya tinanggal. Kakaiba, halos walang deliveries today… 2 deliveries pa lang ngayong umaga, formed carton GMB 700, flat oval bottle 375. Tapos nandito pa si Maam Ancel so dalawa pa kaming walang magawa dito sa office. Tinuruan nga pala niya akong mag-encode ng dimensional analysis ko sa PQMS, tapos iyon, nakapag-encode naman ako. Chicken.

Ngayon, mga 30 minutes na akong nakatunganga lang. Nakakatamad namang aralin yung training manuals namin, puno ng stuff na siyempre ngayon ko lang na-encounter, ayaw ko namang magtanong ng magtanong kay Ate Ancel. Tapos nakakabaliw pa tingnan yung specifications ng products lalo na yung sa labels and caps, ang hirap i-differentiate ng light, standard and dark swatches/color guides. Parang pare-pareho lang.
Color-blind nga yata ako gaya ng sabi ni Deedee.

Buti pa kahapon, ang daming deliveries!

Kahapon, meron pang naiwang deliveries na kinailangang i-record at tatakan from last Sunday. Although yun nga lang, feeling ko nag-accept ako ng stuff na hindi ko naman alam kung mapapanindigan ko kung sakaling for rejection pala dapat. E malay ko ba sa mga defects nun, hindi pa naman ako marunong tumingin. Unang araw ko pa lang yun. Nangangapa pa rin ako sa procedures sa dept, tapos hindi pa ako marunong kumuha ng percent defects. Malay ko pa kung ano yang hitsura ng mga defects nay an. Hay… still have a long way to go… Routine naman yung job eh so ok na siguro a month into the job e ok na ako.

Pero nakakairita man ang job kasi sobrang mabusisi, ok pa naman ako so far tapos sobrang saya at friendly pa ng mga tao dito, lalo na ang mga kapwa ko QA’s although hindi rin ako makapag-bond ng maayos sa kanila kasi puro babae, tapos yung iba pamilyado na kaya puro anak at pagbubuntis ang pinag-uusapan. Hay… as long as mabait sila. J

^___^

Ang tagal naman ng lunchbreak! Shit, nagugutom na ako.

^___^

Hm, hindi pa ako nakakaikot dito sa planta. Hindi ko pa alam kung saan ang mga production lines, kung san ang warehouse… everything. Tapos there might come a time na kapag sa lines na ako naka-assign, I have to inspect the deliveries, the equipments, and the products. Buti na lang may Quality Inspector kami dito, at least siya yung nagco-conduct ng visual inspection ng deliveries instead of us QA’s eh sus ko, kung may around 1200+ pallets na dumating, kelangan nilang mag-inspect ng 26 cases of bottles to look for defects and what not. Iba pa yun sa mga dumarating na 2nd-hand bottles na washed and unwashed! Ang dungis nun na nakakapagod pa! Astig talaga yung si Rommel, yung QI namin. Bait pa, siya kasi yung kasabay ko umuwi kasi kapag papauwi na siya, ibig sabihin wala nang deliveries so pwede na rin akong umuwi. Hehe.

^___^

Meron nga pala akong cute na discovery dito sa office… CD ng Greenwich. Sulat ko dito yung lyrics nung kanta

Ka-Greenwich Kita

Intro:

Kailan lang tayo nagkakilala.
Pero parang super ka-close na kita
Ka-gimmick, ka-text, o ka-tropa
Kaibigan, ang sarap mong makilala

I. Ka-village, ka-tambay, o ka-barangay. Ka-kilay, ka-kulay, ka-height o ka-size
Ka-bus, ka-jeepney, ka-MRT
Sa madaling salita, whoever you may be…

Chorus:
Ka-Greenwich na naman kita
Dito rin tayo nagkita di ba?
Ka-pizza, ka-join ang barkada,
Ka-close ang feeling sa isa’t isa

Ka-Greenwich na naman kita
Ka-hati, ka-share sa iisang pizza
Sarap ka-join bagong ka-kilala
Sarap ka Greenwich
Up to sawa

II. Ka-school, ka-carpool, ka-office, ka-service, ka-joke o ka-chismis, basta’t about showbiz
Ka-FX, ka-floor o ka-elevator
Ka-bonding ang lahat, like never before

^___^

Wah! Siyempre na-miss ko bigla Hunnie ko. Ka-Greenwich ko yun sa tuwing nagke-crave ako for pizza… ka-takawan din at ka-babuyan… Haha! Hunnie, di tayo healthy magkasama. :)

Demo dapat nun ngayon, kaso nagkasunog sa karatig building nung school kaya hindi natuloy. Swerte ng hunnie ko, takot na takot yon eh. Malas lang niya at mahihibang na naman siyang muli sa susunod when it could have been over today. Oh well…

I love you hunnie…

Watch tayo Batman: Begins!

Friday, June 17, 2005

Sa Wakas; Belgian Bites; Si Mama Talaga; Ang Tatay Kong Groovy

Natapos ko na sa wakas ang papers ko today…

Nakakapagod pala mag-drive ng halos buong araw…

Pasaway pa kasi under ako sa agency, eh tinatawagan ko kanina, walang sumasagot. Sana naman sa pagdaan ko doon bukas, may tao.

Excited na ako para sa Lunes, mukhang masaya ang work. Mabusisi pero masaya.

Sana sa Lab ako ma-assign…

^___^


Na-miss ko Hunnie ko today.

Siya kasi ang nag-introduce sa akin ng Belgian Bites ng Mister Donut.

Eh sobrang pagod ako kanina sa SM nang nakakita ako ng Belgian Bites…

Kaya ayun. Nangulila.

Hay…

Bwiset iyon, sira iyong coffee machine nila. Mahal na mahal ko pa man din ang coffee ng Mister Donut. It’s not Starbucks pero lasang brewed naman ang coffee nila (malay ko ba kung brewed nga iyon), tapos mura pa!

Naalala ko tuloy iyong review days ko sa Brains. Sa Quezon Ave kasi ang class, tapos para makarating doon, sumasakay ako ng bus sa EDSA tapos bumaba ng Quezon Ave tapos naglalakad. Eh umaga iyon, siyempre antok pa ako kaya ang ginagawa ko, bumibili ako ng kape sa Mister Donut tapos dadalhin ko sa class. Naiinggit nga sa akin si Joy sa tuwing may dala akong ganoon.

Btw, Joy, hindi ka pa nanlilibre!

^___^

Weirdo ng nanay ko. Nagpakananay talaga siya sa akin ngayong araw na ito, as in gusto niya akong samahan sa lahat ng pupuntahan ko at aayusin na papers tapos ang kulit-kulit magtanong ng mga kulang pang papers. Tapos lahat na lang yata ng kakilala sa ganitong office eh iniisip para madalian daw ako sa proseso, eh yun naman yung ayaw ko, yung naghahanap ng pakikiusapan para mapadali ang lahat.

Si Mama talaga.

^___^

Tatay ko naman, tatay talaga. Hinahayaan lang ako sa mga bagay-bagay na gusto kong gawin, wala masyadong sinasabi sa kung ano man ang gusto niya para sa akin. Mas maingay pa nga si Mama about me not working and being in a choir than Papa .

Siguro kasi musikero din ang tatay ko kaya naiintindihan niya ako. Tsaka groovy si Papa, nakaka-appreciate yun ng music ko, be it Liturgical, Pop, Acoustic, Rock… Basta yung mga uso ngayon, nakakarelate yun. Favorite nga nun ang MYMP at ang South Border.

Ang pinakapriority ng tatay ko sa buhay ay ang magtrabaho ng trabaho para mapakain kami, tapos kapag may opportunity na lumabas at makasama ang family, kinukuha niya lagi. Walang pagod din yung mag-drive papuntang Manila at sobrang worried sa mga anak niya lalong lalo na sa only daughter niyang kasama niya for 16 years na ngayon ay nasa dorm na sa Manila.

Physician ang tatay ko at sobrang mahal yun ng mga pasyente niya. Ang pinakamatanda niyang pasyente ay 94 years old; bilib ako sa doon at may pasyente pa siyang ganoon na katanda, parang Fountain of Youth yata si Papa kapag nagpagamot ka sa kanya.

Kaya sa tatay kong groovy, musikero, doctor at ama,

Happy Father’s Day!

Ingay; Dream Jobs; Happy for Hunnie

7:22 AM

Sa Labas ng SSS Lucena

Shit. Ang aga ko.

Ang init dito, grabe.

Ang ingay sa Lucena sa umaga, puro tricycle ang maririnig mo.

Dumadami na ang tao dito sa labas, buti na rin pala maaga na ako dumating.

Hay…

^___^

On Monday, working doogi na si Woofy.

Quality Assurer ng GSMI Lucena Plant. Naks! Quality Assurer. Not really my dream job but this will do for the meantime. Good naman ang pay for a contract job, and I’ll only be away from Manila for only 5mos. Plus, I get to live with my parents and get reacquainted with the people, the culture, and the laidback lifestyle here in Quezon.

Come to think of it, ano nga ba ang dream job ko?

Noong bata ako, gusto kong maging scientist. Walang specific field, basta scientist; as if ganoon kadali iyon. Noong mga panahon na iyon kasi, hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang engineer. Ngayon alam ko na, laking kaibahan pala ng engineer sa scientist. Nyahaha! Anyway, let me make a list of my dream jobs tutal wala naman akong magawa ngayon…

  1. video game designer
  2. recording artist (dream in progress)
  3. owner/CEO ng San Miguel Corporation
  4. owner/CEO ng Jolibee Corporation (Walang kokontra, dream job nga eh)
  5. astronaut
  6. Don Carlos Palanca Award winning writer
  7. Comic book store owner
  8. Publisher of cutting-edge Pinoy comic books and my own hobby magazine
  9. Animated film producer / owner of an animation studio
  10. Asawa ni Hunnie at tatay ng little Woofies and little Hunnies

^___^

Pocha naman o, ang tagal magbukas ng SSS.

Ang cute ng Hunnie ko kahapon, nagfreakout dahil sa isang interview… wait, hindi pala cute yun. What I meant was nakakaaliw siyang magfreakout, nahihibang na madrama and all… Naisip ko lang na hindi ko pa siya nakikitang ganoon. Worried pa naman ako dahil hindi ako sanay kapag nagfrea-freakout siya. Oh well, at least she was fine later that night. Her story about how the interview went was quite amusing, as in everytime daw may tanong sa kanya, ang una niyang naiisip na sagot ay sarcastic answer tapos biglang mare-realize niya na, oo nga pala, kailangan ko palang galingan.

Hay… Hunnie ko. Hibang.

Btw, malapit na siyang magkaroon ng work… Yay! Kahit hindi iyon ang preferred job niya sana, proud pa rin ako sa kanya. Kahit na disaster ang interview niya, mukhang kukunin naman siya talaga kaya masaya naman ako…

Happy for you Hunnie. :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

How My Day Went; "Masanay ka na!"

I only have 35 minutes to write so I’ll make this quick…

Ang sarap talaga ng may car! Been driving around Lucena City the whole day… and here’s how the day went.

Woke up later that planned kasi puyat sa pagiging hingahan ng poot ng Hunnie ko. I was supposed to go jogging with my parents at around 6am but they did not wake me up; it turns out Papa was not feeling well. I was also supposed to go to the local SSS office to apply for an ID but then by the time Mama and I got there, the quota of 70 new applicants per day was already met. Silly me, I was already warned by Papa yesterday that the SSS line would be quite long. Oh well.

Next stop was PhilHealth. It didn’t take too long there, and now I am guaranteed (I hope) some discount if I get hospitalized. Funny thing, I almost committed a major blunder: I was already walking towards the Campo/Bayan jeepney parked by the highway when I realized I brought a car. Silly, silly me. Oh well, at least did not totally forget my car unlike this really cute lass who forgot her wallet when she left her house and realized she did so when she was later in line to pay for LOA fees. Poor thing… good thing there was this stranger who was a friend’s uncle who offered to pay for her.

Anyway, I went home afterwards and played my beloved PS2 for 2 hours, my daily allowance for indulging in console role-playing goodness. I then left for the Barangay Hall to get my clearance but my silly mom gave me directions to the wrong hall. So I had to drive back past our subdivision, and I had to take a wrong turn and ask around 4 people (who all gave different directions) to get to where I was going. The people at the Barangay Hall were friendly though, and the treasurer, Tito Manny, was an acquaintance of my parents whom they met in Couples for Christ.

I then went straight to my parents’ clinic afterwards; there were lots of patients and medreps waiting to get treated and attended to. One happy note: Tita Luz, my parents’ secretary, a nurse, and sister of the late husband of my mom’s sister, showed me a list of Papa’s patients and patient fees for the day and there must be more than 30 names there. Good day for my dad. :)

I waited for my mom to finish her work and hung out at Mug Café which was located across the street. It is a small place, furnished with a blue sofa, some aluminum tables and nice, soft, comfy chairs and it is well-lit by the afternoon sun; a good place to relax and hangout whether with friends or alone. I ordered a cup of Café Americano (which was quite bitter for my taste) and it took them forever to cook a Cheese Pizza which was nothing out of the ordinary but is quite enough to please my growling stomach.

After that, I walked towards the main avenue that runs through the city and went to Avenue Bookstore. I was in for a surprise when I looked through their textbooks and found three hardbound copies of Perry’s Chemical Engineering Handbook selling for only 3312.50 pesos (which was quite cheap according to my Hunnie). So for anyone I know who wants a copy, just text me.

I also went to a small pet shop across the street. It was a cramped, hot and foul-smelling shop, with cages of lovebirds stacked right beside poorly lit aquariums containing different fishes swimming in murky waters. Further inside, you’ll see stacks of poorly maintained cages containing two Japanese Spitz, a Dachshund and a Shitzu. The Spitz and Dachshund both sell for only 3500 which was quite cheap and if I had the money, I would’ve bought all of them just to take them away from that awful shop.

(Man, it’s 11:10 and I’m already 10 minutes past my planned sleeping time… oh well. On to my entry)

After that, I went to SM to buy a polo for tomorrow as well as some briefs and groceries (or rather, C2 and junkfood). Then back to my place to watch CSI while watching dinner.

What a day. To tell you the truth, even though I’m sad about being away from Canto Cinco and my Hunnie, and not getting a more permanent job in Manila, I think I’m going to like living and working here. Congrats nga pala sa Hunnie ko... She's going to be a teacher. :)

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I overheard an amusing story my mom told a medrep while I was in the clinic. Actually, my mom told the medrep lots of stuff. She talked about the job offer here and my plans to go to medschool next year. She talked about how Vanessa is in Manila right now, studying. And she talked about Papa, and that part made me smile.

Sabi daw kasi ni Papa, “Ganito pala yung pakiramdam kapag iiwan ka na ng mga anak mo ano? ‘Yung magiging tayong dalawa na lang ang sa bahay…” And my mom was laughing… sabi niya, “Masanay ka na!”

I then realized that maybe that’s part of the reason why they insisted on me to take the contract job here. Baka nangungulila sila… hindi kasi sila sanay.

Our House Has 3 Gates; Angels and Demons

Our house here in Lucena has three gates: one for the passenger jeepney, one for the garage that holds a car and a Revo, and a small gate that most guests go through which leads to a porch and the front door. Upon entering the front door, you’ll find our living room and if you walk forward towards the wall (where the TV cabinet that houses our ancient stereo system, as well as wooden carvings of the face of Jesus and the Sto. Niño on top of speakers are all lined up), you’ll see two doors to your left and a door and the main dining area to your right.

Ivan and I used one of the rooms to the left as our room, while Vanessa had the other room to herself. My parents occupied the room to the right, which incidentally has a door that leads to the porch; Papa and Mama used half of their room as their clinic. Their room was smaller than our room; in fact, our room was originally designed to be the Master’s bedroom. When the time came for the Master’s bedroom to live up to its name, the walls had stickers on it, the paint was falling off, the wooden-tiled floors had lots of wooden tiles missing, and the closets had puncture marks from pins that Ivan and I used to put posters and whatnot of our favorite cartoon characters.

I don’t quite remember the exact year when we moved to this house; we first lived in a small house about 10 minutes bike ride from here, and I had my earliest memories there… or rather, most of my baby pictures were taken there, including my first birthday and pictures of me and my brother in sando and briefs. My brother had his first kiss at that street, he was only 5 when I was dared to kiss our neighbor. But I couldn’t and so my brother was dared. He went for the kiss. Hehe.

Right now, I’m here in my sister’s bedroom (which was the room my parents used when we were kids) and I’ll be using this room for at least the next three months. Right now, my sister is in Manila and she had just started taking BS Psychology in Holy Spirit. And even though I’m quite scared for her being a stone’s throw away from the circus that is Malacanang, I am proud that she had finally taken a step out of her sanctuary and braves the scary world that is Manila and college-life.

Anyway, it’s quite funny that I had already made this my room in one night: I took out the small TV my sis was using and put the big TV that was in the living room, then I had set up the Playstation 2, then I rearranged the abubot that my sis has piled up to make room for some of my stuff and I had filled her closet with my clothes. Exciting… it’s been quite a while since I actually felt I lived here. Ever since I went to Pisay for highschool, everytime I stay here in Lucena for the weekend or the summer vacation, I felt like I’m forever a guest because I don’t have my own room. They displaced me since I rarely stay here, especially when college came where a whole sem would pass before I go back home. Now I have a room again, and quite frankly, I’m giddy.

You might be wondering what I’m doing here in Lucena… I’ll be working here. Nothing permanent though, its only for a 3-5 months. I still want that perfect job in Manila, close to my Hunnie and to Canto Cinco. Obviously, I’m not that excited about working here but then again, I keep in mind what Sheila texted me, that this will give me time with my parents, at hindi nabibili yon. I also keep in mind what K told me the other day, na kapag sumuweldo na ako, malayo man ako sa Hunnie ko, hindi ko na proproblemahin ang pamasahe para puntahan siya. :)

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Right now, the new series True Horror is showing in Discovery and the host (who is a Buffy the Vampire Slayer veteran… let me find out who this is in a while), was tackling real life Demons and exorcism.

And they showed footage of an actual exorcism… creepy stuff that you don’t want to see but you won’t be able to take your eyes off. He interviewed Father Gabriel, the president of the International Society of Exorcism (or something like that) in Vatican City, who has faced many adversaries, from Lucifer to Lilith. They also reenacted the exorcism in 1556 called the Miracle of Laon, where a 16 year old girl French girl named Nicole (not sure about the spelling) was possessed by Beelzebub for at least 2 months before finally exorcised leaving her body broken, her sanity hanging by a thread, and the whole community of Laon, France believing that demons and God exist.

I have always been skeptical about the existence of these demons. I am equally skeptical about angels and spirits too. It’s just not believable when you can’t seem to sense them nor see them. And yet the Catholic Church says they exist, and so somehow, I still believe that they exist. And I have these friends in Canto Cinco that actually experienced Succubus attacks... as well as being saved by angels.

During the Canto Cinco outing in Laguna, we hiked and swam a river to a small waterfalls; it was our way of taking a break from the hectic ministry work and communing with God’s handicraft. It was quite an experience; but what made it really memorable for me was when I believe “my” guardian angel made his/her presence known to me. Let me retell how it went…

There were parts in the hike where we have to swim against long stretches of downstream-flowing water. I am not much of a swimmer, but I did brave swimming against the river, aided by the small backpack my Hunnie brought which I carried for her. Along the way, I noticed that I had scraped the sando I wore on the moss-covered rocks and it was stained. I tried rubbing off the stains from the sando but it just won’t come off. There was something peculiar with the stain; it outlined something so I showed it to Deedee. Upon seeing it, she said to me, “Julz! Angel yan!” I was perplexed but then when I looked at it, it did outline the shape of an angel as viewed from the side. I wish I could show it to you right now but I don’t have the means (maybe on Sunday). Anyway, it was an angel facing to the left; you’ll clearly see the head, its garment including the sleeves, and its wings. I couldn’t believe it. I even laughed to myself at how stereotypical this angel looked like. But then… how many times would you see a stain from scraping against moss-covered rocks that is shaped like an angel?

But hey, I’m still not a total believer. I’m still skeptical about these things but it is quite nice to know that I am being guarded by heavenly beings and that somebody of pure goodness is looking over me.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Grabe Pala Ang Buhay Artista

Noong nakaraang linggo, June 5, galing ako sa Pagsanajan kasama ang Canto Cinco para sa pangalawang araw ng shooting ng music video ng O Bayan ng Diyos na kinanta ng Himig Heswita…

Grabe pala ang buhay artista… Nakakapagod! Four ng umaga ang calltime sa Jescom… umulan pa ng malakas ng gabing ‘yon kaya ang putik ng kalye, ang daming debris. Akala ko nga hindi na matutuloy ‘yung shoot pero sa awa ng Diyos, natuloy naman…

Sa isang resort sa Pagsanjan ang shoot. Nakakatawa ‘yun, may banner sa entrance na nakasulat e “Welcome Showgirls” or something to that effect. Nyahaha!
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Canto Cinco sa Pagsanjan
Fiesta dapat yung set pero pagdating namin ‘dun malayo sa fiesta yung dating kasi parang kulang sa dekorasyon… pero astig kasi kapag nakita niyo yung video, iisipin niyo na oo nga, fiesta nga ito.
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Sa ilog ang mundo'y tahimik...
Mayroon kasing scene na sobrang laking salu-salo, as in mga taongbayan na nakapalibot sa isang malaking lamesang puro pagkain tapos kumakain at nagsasaya… coolness.

Eighteen (yata) kami nun na pumunta mula sa Canto Cinco. Kami yung “talents” (shiyet… ang sarap pakinggan!). Mga taumbayan ang roles namin… pero wag ka, ang mga taumbayan naming lalaki, ang puputi! Mukhang mga taga-Maynila. May mga pasaway pa sa amin na ayaw magsuot ng duster kagaya ni Persia at Deedee na nagpa-special request pa sa direk.

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Ilan sa mga taongbayan, left to right, top to bottom: Edz, Patot, Roma, Vic, Eric, Jett, Sheila, Deedee, Persia, Noel M.

Masaya naman ang shoot, nakakapagod nga lang kasi siyempre nasa initan, tapos humid pa nung araw na yun. Siyempre ang daming paulit-ulit na takes, pero ang galing kasi ng mata ng director namin, si Direk Sherman So (na siyang director of photography ng Kampanerang Kuba).
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Direk So (nakatalikod) plus the Taongbayan Singers

Ang mga role na ginanapan ko eh naglalakad na may hawak na basket ng prutas (hindi birong dalhin kasi may pinya, santol at saging sa basket na yun), nagpipilit na tumutugtog ng gitara (yung souvenir guitars na maliit at apat lang ang string) na nakahiga sa damuhan na may sombrero sa ulo,
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The Taongbayan Instrumentalists, left to right: Eric, Will, Jett, Rina at ako na nakahiga. If you look closely, dalawa ang aking chin... chubaboy
tsaka taumbayan na tumatawid sa ilog at bumabati sa mga nakasakay sa bangka. Grabe yun, wala dapat akong balak na mabasa pero kasi sa scene, nakaabang kaming mga taong bayan sa magkabilang gilid ng ilog tapos may mga bangka na dadaan sa gitna. E ang kaso, may mga Krung-krung na nakasakay sa bangka na dumadaan din, mga galling sa Pagsanjan falls, tapos yung isang bangkero, sinagwan ba naman kami! Ayun, basang-basa kami nina Deedee, Eric, Roma at Tricia ng tubig. Buwisit yung bangkero na yun.
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Taongbayan na tumatawid sa ilog, left to right: Eric, Roma, Tricia, Woofy, Patot, Allan, Deedee, Persia
Anyway, meron siyempre sa aming masusuwerte na overexposed sa camera, kagaya nina Eric, Patot, Jett, Sheila at lalung-lalo na si Herbie na siyang naging star! Gumanap siya na isang batang malusog na nanghabol ng manok upang gawing tinola. Hehe.
Kakaiba talaga itong experience na ito. Nakakapagod dahil sa sobrang init, at tagal pero sobrang fulfilling. Sayang nga hindi ko nakita nung isang practice yung partially-edited version ng video pero I'm sure kapag nakita ko 'yun eh sobrang maaliw ako. Wish ko lang ngayon eh sana kasama ulit ang Canto Cinco as talents para sa video ng Kapayapaan. :)

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Left to right, Top row: Vic, Edz, Celina, Allan, Jayson (Patot), Herbie, Will. Second Row: Precious (Deedee), Sheila, Tricia, Eric Rina. Bottom row: Roma, Persia, Woofy

Canto Cinco na!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Retreat

It's funny how i went to Caleruega last weekend hoping to get a couple of questions answered and coming back to good ol' Manila with the same questions unanswered.

It's true that I have gone back from the retreat with a clearer sense of who I am and what I want to do but still, the question of what to do in a span of a year before the next schoolyear starts is still bugging me, three days after communing with God and nature.

Those reading this post who knows me and heard my different stories about how I am going to the States this August, or how I am planning to enter a game design school in the States, or how I want to be a doctor will probably be rolling their eyes again and thinking, "What does this guy want to do now?"

And this is my answer: I might not be leaving for the US anymore and if that's the case, you might see me in Manila taking up Medicine next school year.

It's quite ironic how I couldn't see myself as a doctor when I was a kid and here I am wanting to be one. Check my gradeschool yearbook or ask any of my gradeschool classmates in Lucena City, and I would always say how I wanted to be a scientist. Haha! How innocent...

But then again, I am now a scientist. I am now an engineer. I am now what I wished for when I was a kid. Looking back though, I know that what I did not want to be was a doctor. I did not want to be like my mom and my dad who most of the time were not there... but are they really not there?

One of our activities during the retreat was to make a map of our lives, putting emphais on the important crossroads that we took. And one thing I realized that day was how I had taken forgranted of my parents, blaiming them for not being there when in fact it is clear that it is through their love and guidance that I am here right now.

I love my parents. And I want to be like them. It is only recently that I realized I wanted to be what they are: two devoted doctors who love their craft and their family just as much. People who tried their best and gave their all to keep us, their family, and the sick people they help happy.

So what to do? I am what I wanted to be... I guess I might just try being what I am now. *Sigh* there's far to many unsure things in my life and one of them is if I can keep this desire to be a doctor burning well until the next school year... I certainly hope so. And I ask for your prayers.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Yari Na Naman Ako; Ang Cute Ko Raw Mainis; CBFM & VAT; Finding Neverland; "Bilis! Nasasayang Ang Puri Namin Sa'yo!"

Kakarating ko lang. Yari na naman ako sa Lola kong groovy, hindi ko kasi nasabing didiretso ako sa practice namin eh. Bahala na bukas, batiin ko na lang siguro ng "Good Morning!" tapos pagtitimpla ko ng kape. Ok na siguro 'yun.

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Gising ako ng 10 kaninang umaga. Punta kasi akong Eastwood ng 2:15 para manood ng Finding Neverland (Ganda! Pramis! Nood kayo!). Tapos nag-text ba naman itong si Persia ng 11, sabi kung gusto ko raw ng raket, 250/hr, gagawa lang ako ng essay. E tatlong oras na lang yung natitira para makarating akong Libis at maliligo pa ako, kakain, bibiyahe... pero siyempre pera yun kaya hindi ko tinanggihan. Hehe.

Kaso nga lang, 1:30 ko na natapos ang essay, kaya ayun, nag-taxi ako pa-Libis. Kaya yung kinita kong 375 pesos eh naging 300 na lang. Pasaway pa tong loyal friend ko kanina sa practice kasi late na nga dumatin, ang arte pa pagdating sa mga choreography, kesyo corny daw ang action songs, kesyo OA naman daw sa dami yung hand gestures sa koro ng Kung Yong Nanaisin... Ewan ko lang ha.

Funny lang, sabi ni Tricia, ang cute ko raw mainis kasi namumula ako. Nanggagalaiti daw ba sa galit... Teorya ko sa lamig lang yun pamumula na yun, blood rush. Pero honga, nanggagalaiti nga ako kanina.

Hay, buti na lang mahal ko tong loyal friend ko na ito.

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Total log ban ang topic, tapos yung essay ng tutee ni Persia na natanggap ko sa e-mail eh against total log ban. I-edit ko daw, gawin ko daw 2000 words. Tapos 1,450 words pa lang yung essay... ayuz. Saan ko pupulutin yung 500+ words di ba? Buti na lang against total log ban din ako, at sinuwerteng against total log ban din ang World Wildlife Fund at sa website nila, merong alternative solution na iminungkahi!

Well, totoo nga, may iba pa naman kasing paraan kesa sa knee-jerk reacction ng gobyernong ito sa sakunang nangyari sa Real at Infanta, Quezon. Meron ngang provisions na lumabas way back in 1996 tungkol sa isang national forest management strategy na tinatawang nilang Community Based Forest Management (CBFM). Simple lang yun, turuan ang mga indigenous peoples at mga local communities na nakasalalay ang buhay sa gubat na gumamit ng ating natural resources ng tama at may responsibilidad. Tutal karapatan naman natin at ng mga magiging supling natin ang magkaroon ng pagkukunan ng kabuhayan.

Problema kasi sa gobyernong ito, sa halip na pagigtinging mabuti ang pagpapatupad ng batas eh gawa na lang ng gawa ng panibagong mga batas na hindi naman nakakatulong sa atin. Gaya na lang ng extended VAT na yan, sus ko, eh hindi naman mayayaman ang tatamaan nun kasi yung mga luxury goods na walang VAT naman ang binibili ng mga yun. At kala ba nila eh mahihirap ang bumibili ng sariwang isda? Hindi no. Mas mahal kayang gumawa ng putahe mula sa sariwang kamatis at galunggong kesa bumili ng Ligo sardines. Eh ang sardinas eh may VAT; ibig sabihin dito pa lang ang mga mahihirap ang mas tatamaan ng VAT kesa sa mga mayayaman. At sino ang pinakatatamaan ng VAT na yan? Ang mga middle class, kasi lahat na lang ng bibilhin namin ay may VAT. Vwiset.

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Sa wakas napanood ko na ang Finding Neverland.

Kaastigan.

Ang ganda ng pelikula. Simula pa lang, mapapangiti ka na agad sa musika na maririnig mo. Pagkatapos maaaliw ka sa relasyon ni James Barry (Johnny Depp) sa mga Davis boys na nakilala niya isang hapon sa park. Ang mga Davis boys na ito na anak ni Sylvia (Kate Winslet) ang siyang magiging basehan ng lahat ng characters sa play na Peter Pan. Mapapaluha ka rin naman sa lahat ng nakakaantig na eksena sa pelikula, lalo na nung pinapanood ni James kay Sylvia at sa Davis boys yung play.

Kaastigan talaga.

Manood na kayo. Now na.

^___^

Quote for the day:

"Bilis! Nasasayang ang puri namin sa'yo" -- nasambit ni Rose nang nagpaimportante ako at hindi ko kaagad nakanta yung parte ko sa Kung Yong Nanaisin.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Binarog ng Tubo; Success!; Bakit May Kurtina Sa Pagitan Ng Binti Ni Darna?

Apparently, my blogging exercise didn't yield any fruit yesterday. I'm still lacking my creative juices. Oh well.

Sa totoo lang, gusto kong magsulat sa Tagalog kasi gusto kong gumawa ng kanta sa Tagalog. Kaya ngayon, sana ay pagtiyagaan niyo ang blog entry ko.

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Wala akong makuwento. Napakaganda naman kasi ng araw na ito eh. Nagising ako ng alas-diyes ng tanghali, eh medyo masakit ang ulo ko na parang binarog ng tubo kaya natulog ako ulit. Napakagwapo ko naman kasi eh, natulog ako ng alas-tres ng umaga dahil gumagawa ako ng Noteworthy file ng Sana Maulit Muli, tapos naisip ko kinabukasan na hindi pala namin magagamit sa mga kasal yung kanta.

Kaya ayun. Tapos may magandang diwata na nagsabi sa akin ng pahapyaw na manood daw ako ng Queer Eye. Eh masunurin akong aso kaya ayun. Ang Tan-G.A. nung ni-makeover nila kanina, hindi marunong magluto ng spaghetti. Tapos ginawa pang stenographer yung jowa niya. Pero okay naman sa dulo, success na naman.

(Maiba lang, speaking of success, nakakatawa kanina, nanood ako ng National Geographic dahil sabi rin sa akin ng diwata, tapos meron akong nakitang dalawang Panda na nagmamahalan... Lam nyo na. Pagkatapos nilang gawin ang kelangan, sabi nung tagapag-alaga nilang Hapon, "It was a success! We've been waiting for that the whole day!". Ewan ko lang ha, pero kung marinig ko yun na sabihin ng nanay at tatay ko sa gabi ng honeymoon ko eh baka umurong... Lam nyo na.)

Pagkatapos nun, nag-online ako. May hinahanap akong dilag pero wala eh. Siguro tulog. Oh well. Nag-check lang naman ako ng mail, nakipag-usap kay Pashae at kay Lanie. Tapos nalaman kong di pala natuloy yung EK nina Lanie, Walter, Kelly at Joy nung sabado. Sayang naman pero buti na lang, di rin kasi ako pwede nun eh. Nagplaplano din pala ang barkada na mag-summer shebang sa Caliraya o kaya sa Puerto Galera. Pero sabi ko sa Caliraya na lang kasi walang moolah. Ewan ko ba, sana kahit minsan umulan ng pera. Kahit once lang. Tapos sana puro papel, at hindi tigpipiso, masakit yun.

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Nanood nga pala ako ng sandali ng Darna kanina. Nakita ko na rin sa wakas si Angel Locsin in action. Ang masasabi ko lang ay ang mga sinabi ni Alex Anonas kanina sa YM conference namin: Ang laki! Nakakasilaw!

BTW, kanina ko pa iniisip kung bakit kelangang may puting kurtina sa pagitan ng mga binti ni Angel Locsin. Tingnan niyo ito.

At tsaka may tanong pa pala ako: kelangan pa ba talagang sumirko na parang nasa set ng Crouching Tiger para lang pumulot ng granadang itinapon sa loob ng MRT? Ewan ko lang sa mga writer at direktor ng Darna ha.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Busy busy

Ano pa nga ba? Nakakaligtaan ko na namang magsulat.

Haven't been writing anything lately. Nakakairita na nga eh, I want to write but everytime I try to, I just couldn't. Like now, for example, I needed to blog for you guys to have something new to read and it took me a while to think of anything to write about...

Seriously though, I am blogging right now to exercise my hibernating brain cells, get into the groove and write some creative bullshit later tonight.

Oh well. I hope this works.

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Busy week for the choir, we had almost everyday practices this past week in preparation for the ordination last saturday and the Tanging Yaman store opening in Gateway this coming saturday. Then the Pope died, so we had to squeeze in extra practices for the mass for the Pope in Gesu last thursday. Anyway, at least the Gesu mass last thursday was a success; as in we got a message from Fr. Danny saying, "Great singing!". I sure hope the Pope is quite pleased up there.

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"All the world be glad! Let the sound of praise be heard!"

Sa wakas, nakaranas na rin ako ng ordinasyon ng mga pari. Nung sabado yun, kahapon, kumanta ang Canto Cinco kasama ang iba pang choirs ng Jesuit Music Ministry sa LHS, Ateneo, para sa ordination ng apat na bagong Jesuit priests. Astig yun! To sum it up, it was a great celebration: may nga sumayaw na nanood, bibong-bibo ang dating nung nag-speech na bagong pari, ganda ng kantahan, at astigin ang mga instrumentalists namin. Ganda talaga ng tunog ng isang malaking choir, pero medyo pumalpak lang kami sa various artists rendition namin ng "Kapayapaan", tanong niyo pa kay Noel Cabangon (sabi niya sa amin pagkatapos ng song eh, "Disaster 'no?" Btw, kasama din siya.)

Coolness. Sana maulit pa... At siyempre, pagdasal natin na dumami pa ang mga makasalanang sasama sa paglilingkod sa Diyos. Pagdasal nating lahat ang lahat ng kaparian at sana dumami pa sila.

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I need money.

I need work.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Canto Cinco (C5)

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I'm proud to be part of Canto Cinco (C5) of the Jesuit Music Ministry...
May logo na kami! Ayuz!

Friday, March 25, 2005

Nood Kayo; Highschool; My Song

Please watch Jesuit Communications' Lenten Presentation in Kapamilya ABSCBN on Good Friday and Black Saturday at 4-5pm, entitled "Huling Habilin" and "Huling Salita."

Both presentations will feature great singing talents such as Bituin Escalante, Rey Malipot, May Bayot, Paola Deles, Laine Santana, Noel Cabangon, VP Pinpin, Cooky Chua and will be hosted by Bo Sanchez on Friday and Bro. Nono Alfonso and Bishop Tagle on Saturday.

Invite all your friends to watch! Have a blessed Holy Week!

^___^

My sistah Vanessa graduated from high school last March 19. Wala lang...
Naging photographer lang naman ako. And although it was such a long program (Grade 6 and 4th yr yung nag-march, magkahiwalay pa yung honors for Chinese and regular students), I enjoyed the whole thing because it reminded me of my high school days.

Lalo na yung final song nila, medyo baduy, Thanks To You ba naman (Thank you... for teaching how to love...), pero ang saya nilang panoorin. Kids who really are just in the moment, having only vague ideas on what's ahead of them. My sister is a perfect example, somebody obsessed with looking good and having good times with her barkada but if you ask her what she's taking in college... she just doesn't know. Hay... can't really blame her. I was like that before... well not really. Ngayon lang naman talaga ako nagka-doubts sa kung ano ang gusto kong gawin eh.

Nakaka-miss ang highschool. Congratulate me, I'm a proud kuya. :)

^___^

I have never in my life dreamt of writing a song. Sure, I wrote poems about the wind, leaves, girls, love, and what not but not a song. I love singing, that's given, and I ocassionally like writing, and it does seem like a natural progression to go to song writing but that's just not me. Nah-uh. Nope.

So I was greatly surprised when after listening to a Jars Of Clay CD, and thinking about something (someone) to write about, that I wrote down some lines with a tune in mind and now I have a song that I've been singing non-stop for the past few days.

And to think I laid down the music to the song two days after I wrote it. And it worked. As in the song worked. And I am getting good feedback. And I feel good. I feel GREAT.

And now I have another song in the works. This one though is not exactly flowing smoothly unlike the first one but I got the music done already. I just need the lines. :)

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

C5... 24/7; Nakakahawa

Infamous na ang kumikinang na bunbunan ni Jay-R dahil sa 24/7 campaign ng Sun Cellular. Ang galing nga naman nun, unlimited, kahit mapudpod na ang daliri mo eh hala, text lang ng text.

Pero hindi naman tungkol sa kanya ang entry na ito eh. Pake ko ba dun eh mas magaling naman akong kumanta sa kanya.

What I meant was, 24/7 na akong working for Canto Cinco (C5), our little choir over at the Jesuit Music Ministry. At nakakaadik na, as in sana may magpigil na sa akin. Feeling ko tuloy may trabaho na ako, wala nga lang kapalit na moolah.

To give you an idea of how draining it was for the past week, here is a timeline:

MONDAY: Focus Group Discussion with Bukas-Palad Music Ministry for the 1st ever annual Choir Convention event in celebration of BP's 20th(?) anniversary to be held sometime this year.

TUESDAY: Vocal training with Jomar Ferreria at the CLC Building

WEDNESDAY: Practice for the Baccalaureate Mass of the Ateneo College Graduation with members from Bukas-Palad, Hangad, ACMG, Kinema and us Canto Cinco

THURSDAY: Supposedly rest day. However, Canto Cinco sung at the UP Engineering Student Council Induction of Officers. Watched Constantine with fellow C5 members Abbey and Persia sa Metro East.

FRIDAY: Was awoken by Fr. Jboy to work on the Marian Album Concept Paper and the modules for the Liturgical Music Seminar we were going to give on the 23rd of April at Angeles, Pampanga. Spent the whole day with Abbey, Persia and Tricia at the Loyola House then off to choir practice at the CLC building. Had a very memorable "back-stabbing" activity.

SATURDAY: More work on modules and the concept paper. This time at Starbucks Libis. Still with Abbey, Persia and Tricia. Fr. Jboy treated us to dinner at Something Fishy in Eastwood. Yummy. :)

SUNDAY: Canto Cinco, together with the UP CSC sung in the 11am Student Mass at UP Diliman Parish of Holy Sacrifice. Had lunch with 14 choir members at Mang Jimmy's in Balara. Then off to Jesuit Communication, Sonolux building for a 4-hour training for the Liturgical Music Seminar. AND then, with Abbey, Persia and Precious, stayed at Starbucks Katips for another 3 hours brainstorming about Canto Cinco stuff.

Hay... adik na nga ako. At ang gastos no? But you know the best part of all this?

I'M LOVING IT. C5 24/7!

^___^

Hm.. nakakahawa ang mga lola ko dito sa bahay. Wala kasi silang ginagawa sa buong araw kundi manood, kumain, humiga at matulog eh. So ako, ganun din. Sabi nga ni Ate Henny kanina kina Lola, "Ganito na lang ba palagi? Ang boring ng buhay natin."

Rest day kasi ngayong araw na ito, well, at least from Canto Cinco work. I planned to work on my resume to make it a wee bit more shiny (you know, for more callbacks) but I guess I really wanted to rest.

I woke up at around 10:30. Spent the day pounding on my cellphone and straining my eyes in front of the TV. Wish ko lang naka-Sun ako at ang kausap ko pero hindi eh. Anyway, watched Queer Eye and the Tonight Show during lunchtime then Sabrina on HBO. Then off to dreamland for a 2-hour siesta. Spent 3-hours on the phone when I woke up at 6 (had dinner while on the phone too.) Then I worked on my resume and now, blog.

Ang sarap ba ng buhay bum? Hindi no. Boring.

Need work ASAP. You guys need a lounge singer? :p

Friday, March 11, 2005

Haberdi

Ayan, salat na naman ako sa kuwento, pasensya na talaga.

Basta ang masasabi ko lang ay ano... um... ayun.

Maraming nagbabanta na pumatay sa akin.

Pero ayus lang, basta masaya. :)

^___^

Happy Birthday Rey!

Happy Birthday Rey!

Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday...

Happy Birthday Rey!

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Hangin

Song of the moment: Hangad - Sabay sa Ihip ng Hangin

Ihip ng hangin, pakinggan Mo't
Iyong maririnig: awit ng pag-ibig alay ko sa 'Yo lamang

Kahit na ilang ulit Mo nang narinig
sana'y pansinin ang tinig kong umaawit ng kundiman,
ang puso kong sabik sa 'Yong kandungan.
Iyo sanang pakadinggin aking panalangin

na kahit ako ay maligaw sa 'Yo ay mabalik,
sabay sa ihip ng hangin.
Tangi kong ligaya'y makapiling Ka.

(Ang tangi kong ligaya ay Ikaw, Kapiling Ka)

Kahit na ilang ulit Mo nang narinig
sana'y pansinin ang tinig kong umaawit ng kundiman,
ang puso kong sabik sa 'Yong kandungan.
Iyo sanang pakadinggin aking panalangin
na kahit ako ay maligaw sa 'Yo ay mabalik,
sabay sa ihip ng hangin.

Kailan kaya ang susunod na hanging darating?


^___^

Kailan nga ba ang susunod na hanging darating?
Ito na ba iyon?

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Post-script... C2 Addict; Magandang Dilag

Addict na ako sa C2 Cool & Clean.
Ewan ko ba.
Noon naman eh hindi talga ako fan ng green tea.
Naalala ko pa nga noon, magkasama kami ni Kika tapos bumili kami ng FIC.
Green tea flavor para maiba, trip lang bang tikman.
But no, unang dila ko pa lang sa kulay kulangot na icecream eh ayaw ko na. Yaw to talaga.
Tapos dumating ang C2 Cool & Clean.
Para lang namng tubig na may lasa, 'yung tipong tea bag na naka-tatlong lublob na sa hot water.
Pero trip ko, Cool & Clean daw eh.
Very refreshing.
Naimpluwensiyahan ko na nga ang sistah ko sa pag-inom ng C2.
'Di na rin ito nawawala sa ref namin sa Lucena.
Kayo rin, inom na.

TAPOS

Pahabol na Salita (P.S.) - nung bday ni Meian, bumili ako ulit ng FIC green tea flavor. Para maiba ulit, trip lang bang tikman muli. Ayun, hindi naman pala ganun ka horrendous sa panlasa. Although hindi lasang C2. C2 pa rin.

^____^


Speaking of Meian's Bday, eto na yung pic na pinangako kong ipakikita ko. Behold, ang magandang dilag na may kutis labanos (pang-sinigang!) Heps! Peace tayo Meian, hindi ako ang nagsabi nun.

Batting Eyelashes; Ministop; Naghihintay

I am mesmerized
rendered speechless by your probing eyes
It only takes a flutter
the batting of your eyelashes
the movements of your eyelids
to send me reeling in confusion
in awe and in wonder


^___^

Nandito ako ngayon sa Ministop
naghihintay at nagsusulat.
Sayang wala akong laptop, parang ang sarap mag-blog.
Kakaiba talaga 'tong Ministop.
Ang liwanag, sobrang inviting.
Tapos pagpasok mo sa loob, ang welcoming ng pakiramdam.
'Di gaya sa 7-11 na parang sobrang madumi at crowded.
Ang sarap pa ng pagkain! Kariman Chicken Teriyaki is the best!
Agree talaga ako dito kay Marco, there's something about that yellow, blue, black and white logo that is quite irresistible.

^___^

Sabi ko nga.
Naghihintay ako sa'yo.
Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating?


TAPOS

Monday, February 28, 2005

Makamandag; Luna; Belated Haberdi Meian :) ; Swak!; Pakikiramay

Patawad po sa lahat ng sumusubaybay sa aking munting tahanan. Salat po ako sa kuwento (pero sa totoo hindi, tinatamad lang) at medyo nawalan ng momentum simula nung masira 'yung modem ko (na ayos na ngayon... ayuz).

Pansin kong dumami ang bisita ko. Ewan ko ba sa inyo, sabi nga ni Persia, kahit daw ganito ako matinik daw ako. Makamandag. Pero malamang hindi iyon ang dahilan kung bakit madami akong bisita ano? Hindi? Hindi nga?

Sus ko. Paramdam naman po kayo, may comments naman tsaka Tagboard dyan sa tabi. Sige na, dumadami nga ang numero ng counter ko, wala namang nagpaparamdam.

^___^

Speaking of pagpaparamdam, napansin niyo ba yung buwan nung mga nakaraang araw? Wala lang... kakaiba ano? Bilog na bilog, tapos kulay orange, tapos ang laki-laki. Dinudugo yata ang diyosang si Luna.

Nung mga panahong nagbabadya ang buwan, maraming kakaibang nangyari. Doon sa CLC, si Precious eh nakaramdam ng mga nagpaparamdam. Yung mataray na Volvo ni Abbey, nagre-recline mag-isa ang upuan. Tapos may nakita pa raw na anino si Precious sa pagitan ng anino ng mga gulong nung Volvo na dapat hindi naman nandun. Yan tuloy, nag-freak out si Herbie.

Ewan ko ba sa mga taong ito. Kung anu-ano ang nararamdaman.

^___^

Nag-birthday nga pala si Meian nung February 24. At siyempre hindi ko siya nagawan ng Photoshop-ped thingie dito sa blog ko. Di bale, sa susunod na post, mag-upload ako ng pic featuring her pang-debut flowers na binili pa ni Tricia sa kung saang lugar na dapat twelve roses pero eleven na lang dahil kinain ni Crismar ang isa. Tapos makikita niyo rin ang pang-sinigang na kutis (kutis labanos, according to Ryan Barsolaso) ni Meian.

Peace po Meian. Labshu. Belated Happy Birthday. :)

^___^

Tuwa nga pala ako at binigyan ako ni Fr. Jboy ng isang song nakakantahin na swak sa boses ko. Ito po ay ang Sa Ihip ng Hangin na kasama sa album na Hangad! Acappella na kinanta ng Hangad (obviously).

By the way, congratulations to Hangad for releasing their newest album, The Easter Journey. You can view the press release here.

Mabuhay ang Jesuit Music Ministry!

^___^

Nakikiramay po ako sa mga iniwan ng kanilang mahal sa buhay sa nakalipas na linggong ito. Kay Alva , Jonar, Audrey, Flo at Mabelle, ang mga panalangin ko ay inaalay ko sa inyo at sa inyong mga kapamilya.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Phantom of Starbucks Katips



Wah! Ang crude. Sana magustuhan mo Abbey. Sana din gumaling ako sa Photoshop. Salamat sa libre. :)

Monday, February 14, 2005

Mainit Ang Ulo Ko Part 2; Happy Heart's Day!

Hay... kasasabi ko lang na "I love my Lola" sa last entry ko pero kahapon naman eh napuno na ako.

Oh well, sa mga tuliro na sa oras, kahapon ay Linggo at Valentine's Mass sa UP Chapel ng 11am. Siyempre, dala ko sina Mama at Papa at pinagsuot ko rin sila ng pula. Bakit pula at hindi itim ng gaya ng sabi ko dati? Kasi etong si Fr Jboy eh may pakulo na naman: Lahat daw ng nagmamahal ay dapat nakapula at may blessing ng couples (both married and soon-to-be one) kaya ayun. Nakapula kaming lahat.

Nakakatuwang maraming nagmamahal ng araw na iyon dahil ang daming nagsimbang nakapula. At napaka-sweet pagmasdan ng mga mag-asawa at magkasintahan; sa choir nga namin eh nakapula din si Celina tas yung BF nya. Tapos etong si Victor naman, may dala pang flowers para sa GF nya! Hay... pag-ibig. Sige na nga, sana pag sinuwag kayo ng toro, slight lang ang maramdaman niyong pain.

Anyway, hindi ito ang dahilan kung bakit mainit ang ulo ko kahapon eh. Si Lola kasi, tatlong araw na akong hindi tinatantanang sabihan na umuwi naman daw ako ng maaga. Tapos ok lang sana kung sa akin lang eh, makakaya ko; but no, lahat na yata ng kamag-anak namin eh alam na hindi siya nakakatulog dahil hindi ako umuuwi ng maaga pag gabi. E nagkataon lang naman yun isang gabi napaaga siya ng tulog (mga 6pm yata) tapos nagising siya sa gabi tapos narinig niya akong dumating, at isang beses lang yun nangyari this week (the next day, maaga na akong umuwi and the day after, hindi na ako umalis ng bahay), pero hindi e, the next three days eh yun na lang ang bukang-bibig niya na parang wala na akong ginawang ibang mabuti...

Pero may valid reason naman ako. Talaga namang 8pm to sawa ang rehearsals namin. Tapos pag ginagabi naman ako, hinahatid naman ako ng kotse. But no, sabi ni Lola, kahit na daw, marami daw kasi siyang napapanood na nadidisgrasya dahil sa bilis ng pagmaneho and all that. Gusto ko ngang sabihin na most naman ng napapanood niya eh sa Highway nangyayari at hindi sa Aurora Blvd, tapos hihiritan ko na rin sana ng, "Lola, VOLVO ang naghahatid sa akin. World's safest car", pero baka masampal lang ako non at palayasin. Come to think of it, gusto na rin yata niya akong pauwiin ng Lucena City dahil nga hindi siya makatulog; kung puwede lang talagang umuwi, gagawin ko, kung mabibitbit ko lang ang choir and all, pero wala siyang kasama kundi si Ate at ang mga residente naming ipis kaya ayaw ko rin naman umuwi.

Hay... naiintindihan ko naman si Lola eh. Nung college kasi ako, 7pm pa lang nasa bahay na ako. Kung gabihin man ako nun, hindi araw-araw, minsanan lang sa isang buwan. So siguro hindi lang niya maintindihan kung bakit hindi pwedeng hindi ako uuwi ng maaga.

Oh well, I still love my Lola. Kaninang umaga, hinalikan ko siya at binati ng "Happy Heart's Day" at kita naman sa mukha niya na masaya siya. At inihiram ko pa siya ng Mga Munting Tinig para may mapanood siya kaya't naaliw naman siya ngayong hapon. Pero siyempre wala na naman ako ng bahay ngayon...

Promise, uuwi ako ng maaga.

X___X

Baka mapunta kayo sa UP Diliman tonight, simula na ng UP Fair. Rakenrol na naman 'to magdamag!

Pero pupunta lang naman kami dun ng mga kaibigan ko kasi wala kaming mga date ngayong Valentine's Day (HuHuHu... Ang puso kong sawi). At uuwi ako ng maaga. Bah! Ayaw ko namang mapalayas ng Lola.

So sa mga walang date, kitakits!

At sa mga meron: suwagin sana kayo ng toro! Pwede ring Tamaraw FX o kaya Revo.

JoKe lang po. Magmahalan tayong lahat. =)

HAPPY HEART'S DAY!!!

Sa uulitin... Kiss niyo ko. =P

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Mainit Ang Ulo Ko; I Love My Lola :)

Kakarating ko lang galing practice. For some reason mainit ang ulo ko. Siguro dahil na rin sa pagkanta ng nakakakabag na "Silang Nabubuhay Sa Mundo" na sinulat ni Levi Celerio. Pero hindi eh...

Nagpagupit ako today. Actually gusto ko ang gupit ko eh. Mukha akong tao at hindi aso o oso. Tapos ang bait-bait pa ng barbero ko, si Mang Ramon, nagpa-shave pa ako pagkatapos. Pero for some reason, I needed reassurance na okay nga talaga ang gupit ko. Pero hindi eh, sabi ni Fr. Jboy eh ang pangit daw ng gupit ko. Tapos 'pag tinanong mo naman ang mga katabi mo eh sasabihin nilang, "Okay lang. Fishing ka..." Bwiset, ang plastic.

Tapos eto pang mga kasama ko araw-araw eh hindi na mapigil ang pang-aapi sa akin. Hindi naman ako pikuning bata eh, sa totoo lang patience is my best virtue, pero kung sa gabi-gabi na lang na ginawa ng Diyos eh relentless na inaasar ka nila tapos may magsasabi pa sa'yong ang pangit ng gupit mo tapos kinakabag ka na sa kakahinga at pakiramdam mo eh sumama na ang kaluluwa mo sa pagbirit sa pagkanta eh ewan ko lang kung hindi talaga iinit ang ulo mo.

Hay... kung hindi ko lang mahal itong mga kaibigan kong ito eh isinumpa ko na sila na sana lalo pang lumaki ang mga "assets" nila nang hindi na sila makapaglakad ng pantay.

Umbagan na ito.

X___X

Papaalis na ulit papuntang Singapore sina Tita Rose and family bukas. Kailangan ko na ulit i-condition ang sarili ko na wala na naman akong makakain sa mga susunod na linggo.

Ang sama ko ba? Sana hindi. Nakakaaliw lang kasi na kapag nandito sina Tita sa bahay eh laging puno ang ref. Siguradong meron kang makakain. Eh nung wala sina Tita rito eh araw araw na isda at de lata ang ulam ko. Tapos nung minsan pang lumabas ako ng umaga para pumunta ng Makati for an exam, sabi ko kay Ate na uuwi ako ng tanghali para makatipid. Tapos sabi ba naman eh wala daw siyang lulutuin para sa akin... so yun. Nag-Yoshinoya ako sa Megamall.

Shet. Ang hirap talaga ng magastos na matakaw tapos wala kang trabaho.

Pero huwag ka, mahal na mahal ko ang mga kasama ko sa bahay, all five of them: si Lola, si Ate Henny at ang mga kasambahay naming hayuff na sina Joey, yung aso namin, Fishy, yung asexual kong isda at yung pusa naming inampon na mahilig mag-decapitate ng mga daga. Wala pa siyang pangalan pero Miming na lang muna sa ngayon.

Kwento lang ako tungkol kay Lola: alam niyo si Lola puro na lang panonood ng drama, pera, at kamatayan ang bukang bibig niya, pero nagagalit yan 'pag hindi ako nag-aalmusal at natutuwa ng sobra-sobra 'pag nagkukuwento ako tungkol sa mga raket ko na kumita ako ng pera. Tapos hindi 'yan nakakatulog sa gabi 'pag di pa ako dumarating dahil sa sobrang pag-aalala. Ganun niya kami kamahal; at eto pa, lahat ng birthday at anniversaries ng mga anak at apo niya eh naaalala pa niya.

Magna-ninety years old na si Lola sa Mayo. I love my Lola. :)

Kanina

Nakaka-miss na tumingala at pagmasdan ang langit.
Kumpara sa pagyuko na puro paa mo lang ang makikita mo na nag-uunahang makarating sa hindi mo alam kung saan...

Haha. Nawala ang train of thought ko. Bwiset.

Nakadungaw ako sa bintana ngayon (actually, dungaw is the wrong term kasi nasa loob ako talaga ng 3rd floor CLC Bldg dito sa Ateneo, nagsusulat sa table at pinapanood ang napag-iwanan ng lumubog na araw.) Ang hirap isulat ng nakikita ko. Basta mula sa vantage point ko e nakikita ko ang mga dahon sa taas ng puno na kakaiba ang kulay sa nasa ibabang bahagi kasi overexposed na sila sa araw. At sa medyo malayo, kita ko ang kung ano pa mang natirang liwanag ng araw na naghahati sa langit sa dalawang bahagi: isang kulay orange at isang kulay blue na unti-unting nagiging purple. Nakakatuwang parang nag-aagawan ang liwanag at dilim... Hindi ko lubos maisip na nandito ako, isang taong takot sa pagbabago, at sa mga oras na ito e gandang-ganda ako sa pagbabago ng langit na pinapanood ko.

Hay... Sabi nga ni Sara, change is good. Change is my friend. Or something to that effect. Sorry Sara, bulok lang talaga ang memory ko.

^___^

Magkahalong pait at tamis pala ang malalasahan mo kapag nangungulila ka sa taong pinili mong iwanan. Parang sex na magkahalong hirap at sarap. (Edit: actually, nung una kong sinulat 'to kanina, may nakasulat pang "double-edged knife" pero hindi swak eh kaya di ko na lang sinama.)

Pero kailangan ito, itong pangungulila... Maaalala mo lahat ng pinagsamahan niyo, lahat ng away at kilig moments, pati yung wala lang moments na magkasama kayo precisely because magkasama kayo. At siyempre makikita mo ang lahat ng bagay na akala mo eh tama na ginawa mo pati na rin ang lahat ng bagay na akala mo naman ay hindi mo dapat ginawa. Puro akala 'no? Ano ba naman talaga ang batayan ng pagiging tama o mali ng ginawa mo kundi ang naging resulta at epekto nito sa kanya at sa lahat ng nasa paligid niya? Di ba?

Tapos.

02112004; 6:38PM

(Edit: I wonder kung merong salita para sa eksaktong oras na naramdaman mo ang sakit at sarap ng magkasabay?)
(Edit ulit: Ay shit. Alam ko na. :D)

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Suwagin Man Ako Ng Toro; Presto! 300 Agad; Truly Single; Pang-nginig 'To Pare; Adik; Lucky Color

Sira ang modem ko... Alam niyo ba 'yon?

Siyempre hindi. Hindi rin naman kasi obvious. Gaano ba naman kasi ako kadalas mag-update ng aking blog 'di ba? Gaano ba kadalas ang minsan?

Kaya eto, nakikigamit ng free net ng Tita ko. Buti na lang taga-P&G siya at libre 'to! Isinusumpa ko, mararating ko rin ang narating ni Tita pagdating ng panahon.

Suwagin man ako ng toro.

^___^

While you would probably expect me to be moping from the lack of companies that call me for a job, on the contrary, I already feel like I have a job... And on top of that, I am having so much fun.

Ikaw ba naman na araw-araw lumalabas ng bahay para gumawa ng choir stuff like modules for Liturgical Music Seminars, or hang out with 3 other bums then off to choir practice that lasts until 10 in the evening... Tapos kape!

Ewan ko ba. Kahit ang dami ng trabaho sa choir na ito, masaya ako. It's just something that I really love to do and the people here are some of the warmest, fun-loving, God-fearing and dedicated people I've known.

Pero mataas din naman ang pangarap ko. Hindi naman hanggang sa umalis ako papuntang US sa August eh etong pagkanta na lang ang gagawin ko. Kaya nga naghahanap ng trabaho eh. Kahapon nga, nagturo ako sa isang tutee ni Persia. At presto! 300 agad. Pero sus ko, hindi ako mapakali kagabi at walang alam yung bata! Harinawa naman ay pumasa siya sa Aptitude test niya ngayong araw na ito.

Hay... Sana makanahanap ako ng trabaho! Sana tumawag na ang URC, Canon, P&G, Unilever, o kahit si Elbert!

In the meantime... Kanta na lang muna.

Happiness. :)

^___^

Today is Ash Wednesday.

And a few more days from now is Heart's Day.

It will quite a different Heart's Day for me. This time around I would be truly celebrating it as a single.

But then again, I have Abbey, Persia and Precious to spend the day with jeering at obnoxiously irritating couples in red so it probably won't be so bad. Besides, maraming nagmamahal sa akin (or so I believe).

^___^

Puntahan niyo 'tong blog ni Marco.

May freakingly scary ghost photos na kinuha in some old house in some old province here in the Philippines.

Pang-nginig 'to pare. Puntahan niyo na.

^___^

Adik na naman ako sa PS2. Kapag wala ka nga namang internet at wala ka talagang magawa, tatlo lang naman ang gagawin mo na hindi na nangangailangan ng katakutakot na lakas at pag-iisip: matulog, kumain at manood ng TV.

Sa case ko, maglaro ng PS2. At eto ang pinagsasabay-sabay kong laruin sa mga panahong ito:

Suikoden IV - Isang pagbabalik sa mundo ng Suikoden, at ngayon naman eh sa dagat gaganapin ang malaking parte ng kuwento. Puno pa rin ng nakakalula sa dami na 108 recruitable characters at hitik pa rin sa pulitika at drama. Medyo boring at mabagal lang compared sa Suikoden III pero ok na rin. Basta nandyan si Jeane.

Megaman X: Command Mission - RPG na si X at Zero ang bida. Surprisingly, parang Suikoden ang premise ng kwento: nag-alsa ang mga Reploids sa pamumuno ni Epsilon at nasa kamay nina X at ng mga Resistance forces na pigilan ang Rebellion Army. Kakaiba sa nakasanayan niyong Megaman; turn-based battles ala Final Fantasy X at mission-based pero linear. Acquired taste.

The Lord of The Rings: The Third Age - RPG pa rin. Obviously tungkol sa Lord of the Rings pero sa halip na si Aragorn, Gimli, Legolas at Gandalf ang characters mo, eh mga wannabes na walang personality ang kamalas-malasang magagamit mo. Ang premise eh meron daw isang party (kayo yon) na sumusunod sa Fellowship habang sila'y papuntang Mordor. Wannabes talaga. Pirated. Pirated na nga 'tong DVD na 'to, pirated pa rin ang characters mo. Pero in fairness maganda ang graphics, at makakalaban mo yung Balrog sa Moira na ubod ng hirap sugpuin. Clone ng Final Fantasy X ang battle system.

Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time - Late na ako sa hype. Powtah, ito na ang pinakamagandang game na nakita at nalaro ko sa PS2. Ginanap sa India ang kwento, may mahika, buhangin, palasyo, mga kalabang nakakabwisit sa talino at puno ng Matrix style moves. Lahat ng kayang gawin ni Lara Croft ay magagawa niya (pwera na lang ang manganak) at lamang pa siya dahil kaya niyang maglakad sa dingding. May lahing unggoy ang Prince na ito. Pero ok lang, da best pa rin! Sana matapos ko na 'to.

Sabi ko nga. Adik na naman ako sa PS2.

^___^

O siya, sa susunod na lang ulit.

Tandaan, 'wag magpapasuwag sa toro. Kaya sa Heart's Day, ang lucky color ay itim, habang ang lucky number ay 11. Iwasan ang mga bukid at zoo.

woofy

Monday, January 31, 2005

On Recollections and Jobs

It's been a while.

Last sunday, Canto Cinco (our choir) had a recollection at the CLC in Ateneo after our mass at UP. I just have to say that people are beginning to notice how different the 11am mass at the UP Parish is because there were so many people. As in the whole church was quite full (which was not usually the case when we sing there). And the church did something about the sound system... as in we suddenly sounded REALLY GOOD. Hehe. Sabi ni nga ni Jomar, yung vocal trainor namin from PHSA, "PRACTICE MAKES PERMANENT."

Anyway, during the recollection, we were asked to reflect on our broken spirit and to pray for renewal... for a new heart. And during the meditation, I realized that I have been far too careless with my friendships, the people I trust and the people I love. So when Fr. Jboy asked us what kind of heart we wanted, I told the group I wanted a heart that is open. One with no barriers, rather than the one-way mirror that I have for a heart. One that is transparent and true.

**&**

Enough about hearts. Baka kasi ayaw niyo nang magbasa ulit, sabihin niyo ang baduy kong tao.

Let's talk about jobs and job hunting. Today I experienced my first official job interview... well, first official INITIAL interview. All I can say is that it was quite a nerve-racking experience... especially when the interviewer is SO cute. :) Hay... But I do think I won't get a call back. The job requires me to be willing to work in Sta. Rosa and I just can't because I have my Lola and the Canto Cinco to tend to.

Tomorrow, I have an exam with Petron; another company that would probably require me to work outside Manila. Hay... Oh well. Sayang naman kung di ko puntahan. I just wish I would get a call from either Canon, or URC; if that happens then I would probably be really happy... unless Procter and Gamble calls. Now when THAT happens, and I get accepted... Manlilibre ako. :)

**&**

Song of the Moment: Rivermaya - You'll Be Safe Here

Nobody knows
Just why we’re here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Oh Yes... It's My Birthday

It is funny that I find myself right here in front of my desktop PC trying to write something about the year that passed. I think I have never done this before; looking back at what happened and thinking about what is in store for me.

But I guess right now, I am doing this because I feel like I am on a crossroad and I don't know where to go. Frankly, I just want to have one last look before I head out into whatever God has in store for me.

My 21st year was a blast, academic-wise. It was my last year in college, and thankfully I graduated despite being totally unsure of what I'd really like to do or if I really want to pursue Chemical Engineering after school. Even with the imminent plan of going to the US and the ever-increasing desire to go to medical school, I took the licensure exams (as a security blanket if things don't work out in the US) and now I am a Registered Chemical Engineer. That was just the icing on the cake, and I am really happy that I made my parents and everybody around me so proud.

This past year was also a good year for me and music. Music is my passion and God has blessed me with the opportunity to serve Him through singing. Not only that but He has also blessed me with new friends; these wonderful people at Canto Cinco that I can always look up to for strength and inspiration. And on top of all that, I will finally be able to fulfill my dream: to record an album. This is definitely that one ride of my life that I will never forget.

It is amazing how God has given me a lot this year when I, on the other hand, had been giving so little to the ones I love. I can say that my 21st year was not a good year for relationships; I had been very unfaithful and careless with Kika and I am definitely not proud of the things I did and the pain I've caused her and all the other people involved. But then, I am enjoying all these new experiences and friendships that I've gained and I thank God for all these, especially now that things are working out well with me and Kix...

Still, I am happy of how my life is going right now. I may not know what I really want to do, what road to take, or what dream to pursue, but if all these blessings are indications of how God is closely paying attention then I am definitely looking forward to everything my 22nd year has to offer.

Engr. Woofy

Monday, January 17, 2005

On Slumber Days and Health Consciousness

Today was one of those slumber days... just me, my blanket and my really stiff bed.

Not that everyday is not a slumber day for me. Being a bum comes with all the luxuries that most unemployed graduates get: the bed, the pillow, the blanket, the TV, the couch and the glorious food. You wake up with the lunch already served, you turn on the TV, you watch snakes eat mice on Discovery while you munch on whatever edible stuff is in the ref, and before you know it, balita na sa Channel 2.

This morning would have been one of those regular bum days except that it was really cold. For some reason, God has turned up the air-conditioning to Economy Cool and forgot to turn it off. I woke up with a runny nose, and come to think of it, my nose hurts from all that sneezing and trying to hold back the sneezing. I so wished my nose literally ran today. And if it did, I hope it comes back tomorrow, alive and kicking, ready and healthy for the rehearsals...

Which I am so desperately excited for. Anything that can make me get out of the house that does not involve me sweating and running...

Which I find really weird. I mean, I know I lost weight ever since after the licensure exams. And I know I have to do something to maintain and perhaps tone this flabby internet-surfer dude body of mine. But I feel really awkward when people see me exercising. Until now, I haven't figured out why I am so conscious about being health conscious...

Gah! Oh well, maybe I am just so damn lazy. Still, I would do something about this health consciousness problem of mine. I swear on the grave (that is a pile of leaves) of Bobong the Salagubang I adopted one fateful day.

woofy

I'm back...

This will be how my bahay-aso would temporarily look like.
I'm now really planning to vacate my beloved home but still...
We'll see.

Anyway, I'm back. And for lack of anything to write about, click this

Bye!

woofster